Category Archives: soulmates

Prince Charming

As did most women, I fell into the trap of believing some buff, smooth talking stud was going to ride up (in a suit )on a Harley, and take me for the ride of my life called love. Ha. NOPE. Turns out I like nerdy awkward guys anyways…..the ones you can watch Star Wars or The Avengers with, ya know, the ones who realizes that sometimes you just want to wear a batman shirt and panties ALL day Saturday (Don’t judge me).


Well I ended up pushing away and hurting a lot of good (really mostly crappy guys), BUT before you mark me down as a man slaying bitch just know….they just weren’t IT. I simply do not believe in settling, even when everyone around me said I should, being proposed to twice and not just being overcome by “woman instincts” and screaming yes  without even thinking somehow makes everyone act like you are hard to please or being picky…..REALITY CHECK: I just knew those men were not the man to take my breath away or adoringly love me. When you ask a man why he loves you and he responds “You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen”……you kind of piece together the fact that he is a shallow D bag, you can quote me on that actually, and you are an idiot for dating him. Come on! What about my kick ass personality dummy? Anyways…. let’s move forward.

I have gone through a lot this past year and have handled my love life, and inevitably i’m sure a few other things as well, poorly to say the least, BUT even though things are in a strangeish place I am telling women(and men too) now DO NOT SETTLE, no matter how long you have been dating or how nice they are NEITHER OF THOSE MATTER when it comes to true happiness, those do not compare to being in love (finding your soulmate if you will)….that goes beyond comparison. It is not just the hopeless romantic hidden deep within me that SOMEHOW always finds it’s way out no matter how deep I bury her! I will never give up on him. My prince charming and I will live happily ever after and we may just drive off on that Harley into the sunset! You never know. :]



Dissecting the moment

His eyes,
fixate on me,
I feel his heart beat,
faster and faster,
I can barely breathe.
Look at me,
What do you see?
Your mistress,
your lover,
the woman of your dreams.
Follow your heart,
wherever it leads,
for it will always,
bring you back here to me.

The waiting game

I can’t have you,

the time isn’t right.

My heart is unhappy,

we just seem to fight.


Papa roach says it best “Tear my heart open, sew myself shut, my weakness is that I care too much”, Isn’t that the truth Papa Roach. So shove those feelings down and have a drink.

Remember that scene from Aladdin where Jafar has Jasmine trapped in the hourglass…Yeah that’s how i feel.

Mi Amor, Meine liebe, Mon Amour.


How did I not know,

How did I not see?

My heart,

it no longer belongs to me.

It’s yours,

maybe it always was.

I looked,

I searched,

but never found,

the man who makes my world go round.

Not until….

I thought I had it figured out,

to push them away,

to keep them out.

You ripped open my heart,

removed the bad and helped me mend,

how do you do it,

time and time again.